I have no way of coming to terms with this. This unpredictable me is so not me, I am planned and coordinated and organised and always one step ahead of time. The pessimistic, unnerving bitch of a cold-hearted person yields within me. I see myself as a soldier and a warrior always fighting against the norm being tormented by their daily nuances. Ive done it again, just once again. I feared getting into this because I always destroy anything I touch. I never meant to hurt him or crush him like I did "the tower" she called it came crashing down, just like the predictions. Im a horrible human being I am never able to self satisfy or let be satisf